Ok, so I finally started my treatment today! Geezzzz, I am exhausted! It takes soooo much longer to do simple things like shower and dress! Coupled with the fact that I haven't been able to move my right arm much for the last 3 weeks... made 'application' quite difficult. [Thank You, Szchuk!] Had to have help doing everything: head, back, and arms. Then came the fun of doing my head AGAIN after my hair dried! Lovely! I know there are people out there that have been doing this for YEARS! But I just found out what all this crap is on Thursday.... it is hard to acclimate this new thing in my life - knowing that it will be like this ALWAYS. And now that I know what it is...I get exasperated when 'something' new flares up. It just is plain frustrating!! Hey! I get to do my face tonight! Yayyyy! Sorry for the sarcasm, but I am still trying to wrap my brain around all this... and keep some semblance of sanity to me.
I know I need to trudge on in life...but after waking this morning and not being able to move even out of bed...I am not anticipating going out into the world tomorrow: regular things like bank, PO, school, stores. I feel like EVERYONE will notice (though I do have ways to contain all this). That's another thing! I can't even wear my hat anymore... AHHHH! That was how I contained the WORST of this - my hat! :(( I just feel like everyone will be staring at me and will be disgusted by me. uggghhhh... maybe I should carry a BIG STICK! lol. Seems like I'll already be carrying a Scarlet Letter on my chest. How does one deal with the stares and disgusted looks??? Do I go out of my way to explain, or just suck it up and ignore the ignorance?
Well, I am done rambling for the day... 'Hasta!
IHGG,
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